MELTDOWN!

And this is what has happened to me on Monday morning.  In the dentist's office.  After being informed that my 11 year old has lost his permanent incisor permanently in a scooter accident at the skateboard park. 

And the cost of repair. 

With Damon starting a new job next week.

With a three month internship that pays next to nothing.

And a horse that needs a trailer.

And a trailer that would need a truck to pull it.

And Matthew wants piano lessons.

And a piano.

Soccer season started.

And dance.

Four kids dance.

Well, five really, but nobody is charging Ian to join in.

Yet.

Then I had to pick up Aidan from school with a belly ache. 

Matthew's eye swelled up later in the afternoon.

http://www.myaspergerschild.com/2014/01/from-anxiety-to-anger-to-meltdown.html

The only thing worse than realising you have all the symptoms of high-functioning autism and that you are having a meltdown is that the universe doesn't stop throwing shit at you once you DO meltdown.

Although...Catherine.  Thanks.  Fiona.  Renee.  Dee. 

Shit.  I have friends who love me anyway.

I can melt.  And they will catch me.  Thanks again.